In spite of everithing, today was a really memorable day, a few days ago, Ugo told me that my blog only contributed to the world but misery for its dismal aspect and its melancholic content, a blow in the liver if you ask me. Well, today I will revindicate myself with the world because I still have latent the smell of today's hapiness.

When both clock's pointers were greeting the 3, I was down, a person was waiting for me but I arrive too late, I was trapped in a lot of papers and legal matters, I really wanted to have a long conversation with this person and the only thing I obtained was an empty seat and one deception more. Time was passing and I was resigned to study for my Interconectividad's final exam, it was then when Alejandro arrived and after a few sentences interchange, he convinced me to drink some beers with his friends: It's funny to see that without realizing it, without caring what career are you studying, people always join themselves with thier interest area and express it in the daily thing, the way they speak, laugh, drink beer, the jokes they say are good indicators. It's always a good thing interact with new people, it makes you remember the world is not as small and complicated as you believe.

Time and money are limited resources, so in any moment they should drain. About at 20 hrs I had a messenger conversation with a really incredible person, I won't mention his name here just in case he feels embarrassed by my words. It was a really great sincerity moment in wich we sayed things that (at least for me) will never be forgotten, it is an amazing, a nice thing the fact of know you have a really good friend, a person in wich you can count with, he reminded me that kind of simple-but-precious things that make you feel it is worthwhile to think in the other ones. From behind this dimness I want to thank you to have opened your spirit and to support me in moments like this. TK.

From now I will try to write about more interesting subjects than my personal feelings... Maybe this can cause more than a pair of visitors per week hit this page once a while. Good Night.

Sometimes you are very tired of yourself, you feel there's nothing in the world that can make you smile. One by one, like drops of water falling on a rock, you have been receiving emotional hits, bullets faster than thought cross your body with no mercy, destroy eagerly your spirit. They are the voices of your friends, the gazes of your parents, the smiles of strangers, tears in the mirror pulling up your brain, hollowing your soul. Finally without caring how strong the stone is, some time later drops mark the rock for ethernity, it will never be the same. In the case of soul, the result is the same but the process is quicker.

Suddenly following Murphy's laws, everithing get worst, you receive the definitive punch, you are lost in a non-sense world of sadness. Someone has thrown a stone to your soul made of fine glass, you are broken, you feel empty, meat without spirit, spirit in the darkness.

Someone makes you think your are not victim, perhaps you are the hangman, all it's your fault. Thinking for a while, he can have the reason, there are a lot of things you had to do but you didn't, there are a lot of instants in wich you had to be special, and guess what... you didn't

Yeah, it's a cold day in hell. World is polarized, world teaches you there are good guys and bad guys, black or white, heaven or hell, there is no space for feelings or illusions. Well, I think all of them are blind. They must remember all of us are made of the same gray-colored stuff, They must remember that even the devil feels, dreams and has his little heart.

The eyes in the mirror say you are not the same, you have reached your error-count limit, you are damned, you fall. However you rise up yourself because it doesn't matter what they say, even in the land of the damned ones, gray has something of white and we have the hope of being better.

Blind Curse! Don't you hate when you have a lot of work to do, your carried out works checklist is zero-filled and your responsibilities queue is very close to send out a 'stack overflow' message directly to your nervous system, and suddenly you notice that your body doesn't work like it would should, yip! you are very tired, your eyes are closing without your consent and your head is moving around in such a radar-mode. Well I feel it this morning, I have not slept a lot these days and last night I didn't sleep anything at all, I found myself sleeping on computer's desktop about at 09:00, I guess I fell asleep toward 5:00 o'clock. Due to my not-programmed rest I couldn't arrive on time to my Japanese class. I really hate miss my Japanese class!

Professor Barrera shot out his hyphotesis about the birth of the renaissance: He says plague (bubonic pest) was the one who instigate the change in people's way of thinking, passing from a highly religious behavior, to one more mundane, earthlier (more human-kind if you ask me) producing this way the reinassance, the reason: People could not forgive God for curse of the plague, people saw how all its family dead due to the plague and they began to think why they have to be perfect virtuous folk if anyway they would die and God would simply stay quiet making nothing for its people. From then on, people tried to enjoy the life leaving church absolutely alone and deprecated. I agree with this because it has biological and social sense. Very interesting uhh?

About at 17:00 I assisted two girls with their Estructuras de Datos' homework, they had problems with pointers in C in the intent of develop classes using lists and trees, fortunately I found the bug and relatively quickly I fixed the pointer-related error definitively saving the girls's day, in reward for my opportune help, they invited me a cold beer Mmmmmm, they saved my day!

Well, I'm very tired now, I'm heading to bed right in this moment, I plan to wake up in about three hours to finish unsettled tasks. I'll se you later, don't change the channel.

Well I finally have finished my part of the work: an extension in charge of parse a query result container and represent its content in a xml document embedded in a stream, all for our j2ee application in Arquitectura de Software class. At this time, I wonder if Ugo had finished his part: deployment! creepy.. don't you think so? I hope he could.

In my .NET class, I exposed a j2ee core design pattern named View Helper, it is not a complex thing, is the focus of all object oriented problematic: Separation of classes according to the functionality, in this specific case, the View Helper Pattern profess that both presentation and application functionallity can not be implemented interwoven. From my point of view this a absolutely mandatory subject, more than a dessign pattern It is what I call a 'lifestyle', If you don't design your applications obeying this siple rule, man, you are not the rightman!

Today I listened someone talk about Baloto's big & juicy prize that in this moment is shooting 25000000000 pesos (about nine million dollars), as everybody can see it is enough money to buy a lot of beer (beside other -little- things). I have begun to think what would people do with such amount of money in their wallet, at first one could think that they would buy all that they have 'always' dreamt, a house in the beach, a man jumping of a cage, a yacht with ladies in bikini, wathever. They are buying their hapiness! Are they criminals for it?, the question is, if they didn't have money before, how they could be happy? Did they buy their hapiness before? My answer is Yes. You are always buying your happy. A purchase is a kind of trade: you change money for goods and services, likewise it is the life... you change a joke for a smile, a tender sentence for a kiss, actually I am iving my rest, my strong and my youth in exchange for the things that make me happy: the capacity to learn, thinking different, the self-growing and others are my goods and I'm paying with my effort, Am I a criminal for buying my hapiness? I think one HAVE TO give the most one can in exchange for his hapiness, if your you don't shoot all your bullets to get what you really want, your life sucks.

I don't know if you understood what the .... I was talking about, if you are thinking what I believe you are thinking, the answer is no, I am not drugged neither drunk. In brief, I was talking about the prevailing necessity of effort to get happiness, it is absolutely unalterable: No Pain No Gain, Capicci? And this, my dear friends is all the difference that exist among the ones who born to be losers and the ones who born to be beyond of a victory or a defeat, they were born to REALLY enjoy.

Have your ever dealed with a not-on-your-hands-problems? That kind of problems where you don't have complete autonomy to achieve solutions involving deep structural changes, it doesn't matter how well your solution is, at the end it will be only a good idea but not a reality :( . Well, you have to know that posting html (I mean pure html, not embedded html code in a plain text context ) on this blogging server is in Ugo's words just a really pain in the ass. Apparently the server's posting service doesn't distinguish between html ant plain text at the time of evaluate line breaks, carriage returns, white spaces and so on, if you try to post html code with one or more of these problematic characters, you'll se an html blog page that will make you wish don't have a blog!!

After a really tedious arturo-server pulse, I was kicked by my opponent, nothing to do: It's not on my hands! I thought. Solution: If you don't have any chance with your enemy, join him (and silently, thoughtful, wait the appropiate moment and... zap! just backstabb the bastard :) ). A few C code lines helped me to leave the problem, I made a mini-mini-parserthat sends directly to the hell and with no-stops line breaks and his closer friends based on it's role in the document, thus, text-role means welcome, html-role means no mercy. C is fantastic, don't you think so, It simply gives you a efficient and fast way to deal with your common daily damned problems. There is nothing that can be compared with! (within his programming paradigm of course).

Today Olga called me and we spoke for a long time, she told me she approved the admission exam to study in Universidad Nacional. I'm so happy for her. I wonder how my life would be if i had studied there when I had the opportunity... well it's out of business now. From behind this dimness I wish you the best Olga, suerte y pulso, keep that way and GO ON!!

Now I'm watching a massive work mountain above my desktop, blind curse!! ;( damned the day, the hour and the second in wich I accepted to be monitor of 2 courses, in this moment I have to grade students' quiz and homework for Modelaje y Especificacion de Software class, as if my misfortune wouldn't be enough I have to check, comment and grade about 30 students' class diagrams for Estructuras de Datos class, keeping in mind I have to make a web service for .NET class read JAXB and other few things... yip! life is good.

When I was a child (physically I mean, actually I stilll be going a child in many ways), I used to spent my time looking at Mr. Cat's eyes... green like emerald, deep like the universe and cold, cold like a spear crossing through your chest. However, it was an incredible pleasure just being there, thoughtful, static, trying to discover the secret behind his eyes. It was an enigma for me, how it was possible that something so small as a cat could have an entire universe on his own.

I'm in a point of my life in wich I'm working hard to turn my way to point another north, my true north. Mr. Cat has gone and perhaps I will never see his shining emeralds again, however now, in a new stage of my life I really want to put my strong, my mind and overalls my soul, in other very interesting subjects in wich I have been thinking for a long time but i did not realize due to things that have no relevancy for this writing. Here is a list of some of them, I trust I'll advance in my researches.

• C Underground
  Further the fact I think C is a fantastic programming language and the possible knowledge i can have in, I feel there are low-level topics i need to explore in detail, i mean the interaction with hardware and the control of the machine beyond an application's scope.
• The Power of Graphs
  As l can see, graphs are one of the most incredible and interesting things people can research on. In fact, problems asociated with graphs are always a great source of discussion and therefore of knowledge.
• The Limit of the Objec-Oriented Sense
  I don't have anything against this software developement practice, the truth is that most of the software I have developed is entirely object-oriented, however i feel software community is forgetting it is good tool but not the unique even not the best.
• Software Design Patterns
  This point is very close to previous one. Where is the line marking up the limit between the use and the abuse of Mr. Gamma and his gang's researches?.
• Penguin Knowledge
  Once you have installed your Linux's prefered distribution, a world full of possibilities has opened his doors. Opportunities of change, investigation and of corse knowledge, I'm very interested on improve my penguin's skills.
• Is the Human Race Human?
  With the first-world nations standig quiet, stupid, just seeing how 250 million of african live with less than US$1 per day and about 20% of them are infected with AIDS; Mr Bush trying to dominate the whole planet; Bin Ladens walking across the streets and much more, I wonder if really the so-called 'rational specie' have a true human sense.
• Living my Life
  In the past I didn't use to put my energy on this, but that must change! Sometimes you are doing so many things and your forget to live, you forget enjoy the life, go to see a good movie, read an interesting book, go out with your true friends. These are what I call 'The little big pleassures of the life'.

Those were some topics to work in, if you have somehthing to say or you want to give your opinion, don't doubt any more and email me. Well it's too early but I have a lot of things to do, i don't want to fail in my goals, like Mr. Cat's eyes every one of them owns a universe inside and I'm an explorer ready to put my flag in and blisful scream my name in the dark, in the deep, in the time.